Thursday, 29 April 2010

Wise Words

I can remember some very wise words my Grandmother passed to me - "before you speak take the words from your mouth, look hard at them and if they are true and fair and just put them back and say them"
The modern version I guess is "engage brain before opening mouth"

Oh why don't I remember that when it's really, really important ?..................... 

Tuesday, 27 April 2010


I think it was the Rolling Stones who sang "You can't always get what you want"  How true, but then what you want isn't really what you want on so many occasions........ and then sometimes you just want too much.....

Monday, 26 April 2010

It's all a matter of timing.

From when you get up in the morning, in my case 3.45am, to when you sign out and say goodnight it's all a matter of timing....... Being up so early, unable to sleep is going to reflect upon my day, much as when I closed the laptop finally last night caused my lack of sleep. Perhaps another 30 minutes of sleep would have got me through this dreaded time of the morning..........perhaps. But now I am awake and my mind is racing with the full complement of worries and wonderings. Timing for a lot of things was s!*t yesterday. I desperately need a clear head and a body free from pain - ha! don't want much do I? -  to be able to get my timing right today.............

Sunday, 25 April 2010

"Undo Send"

I'm sure you've been there - feeling down, miserable, hurt, annoyed or downright angry. Determined to right a wrong, put things straight, you type out an email. You'll either take seconds to do it or half the night, with many rewrites, much heart searching and hesitation. There! it's done and you hit the "send" button! For right or wrong it has gone, never to be retrieved............ but now for an all too brief 10 seconds you get a second chance, a chance to undo send.
Have I used it?   You bet I have! Am I happy that I used it? Well for now I am, but the email is still in the Drafts folder.............

Thursday, 22 April 2010

Thinking time

We all need this, a little time to think. perhaps its the pleasant rerun of the day or a happy event. Perhaps not. The trouble with thinking is that it is difficult to remain clear headed, at least it is for me. I can think myself into a spiral in no time at all! The confusion which follows is sometimes both draining emotionally and totally counter productive.  For the past two or three years I have been able to turn to photography to divert my mind. mainly because I have been on such a steep learning curve with both the camera and the computer side of things. The curve is not quite so steep now and other things are beginning to creep in at the edges of my thinking, things I can no longer banish. So.......presupposing that I can keep the thoughts clear, logical, less emotional, I have some decisions to make..............

Friday, 16 April 2010

Sunday, 11 April 2010

Yet another

I don't know how to start this - 4 tries so far - it all sounds so clinical "we lost another member of the family" well that was careless!! He passed away...... well he did, he died and our family is missing a much loved man. About 3 weeks ago the prognosis was 12 months...... was that a guess, were they being kind? We shall never know...........
I know that family members read this and I beg their forgiveness for making our loss so public but the names go unmentioned. A wound of my own is opened just a little. Four years ago this month and a few days on I was stuck in a traffic jam trying to get to the Hospice when my Dad died. Were on earth have those four years gone...........

Monday, 5 April 2010


About 3 years ago a tabby cat moved into an outbuilding of mine. He was nothing but a shadow for several months, only appearing to eat the food I put out. A different story today, he moved in and decided that being a house cat was much better than being a stray! He has at last got the hang of using a litter tray, thank goodness and has picked which is his favourite sofa. I couldn't wish for an animal with a more gentle nature, never a scowl nor a scratch have I had and he is even learning to "play" I guess that's an alien concept to a stray, when the next meal was always uppermost in his mind.

 He has to go to the Vet tomorrow as he has a problem with one of his eyes. Let's hope it's a problem which can be solved!




If I only needed sleep it wouldn't be so bad.....what I need is peace of mind.  Now if I could shop for that I'd be just fine.......