Meaning

Oh how I wish I could say what I mean.
You know.... the things that tumble around in your mind but never quite make it to your mouth! And how you wish you were brave enough to say them, but you don't. Usually for fear of the consequences, both to yourself and to the recipient. So they remain unsaid and you remain strangely unsatisfied. They continue their tumble round your brain, brooding. Leaving you feeling inadequate, foolish, a failure, annoyed, frustrated. Worst of all of course is that others are totally unaware of your state of mind, of your confusion and inability to articulate. So to them everything may be just fine. And if you ever should find the courage to get these thoughts gathered and spoken, the response is likely to be.... "well you should have said before"  Oh that it were so easy......................