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Change

All I wanted to do was change my email address , simple you would think? Well you know what thought did! From now on it will appear that this blog is being written by two people but it isn't, it's just me. Apparently if I delete the old email address I will also be deleting all the photos previously posted....sigh! So from now on I have a split personality. Thinking about it, that would have been useful over the past week, well physically not mentally! I burned quite a bit of midnight oil trying to sort out photos for my SoFoBoMo project, http://www.sofobomo.org/HomePage. It's amazing that I began the project, knowing the time constraints and with a "plan" then left so much until the last few days - madness!! Well with that now finished and the photos from my first attempts at modelling nearly organised I can get back to normal for oh let's see...... Monday. Then I get to see the results of the second photo shoot. Hopefully I will be looking a lot more relaxed this time. It really has been a great experience, mainly due to the kindness and consideration of the Photographer, who did a wonderful job at putting me at my ease. I could really get to like modelling......... and I can't believe I just said that! (insert row of smiley faces) Hmmmmm........

Sorting myself out....

I've had a lot going on over the past few days and have neglected my blog but then it's not supposed to be a burden. I've had time to think about the photo shoot which, to be honest, has occupied far more of my time and thoughts than perhaps it should, but was so far from my "norm" and so enjoyable. After I looked through the photos, both the finished, edited ones and those straight from the camera, I couldn't wait to go through the whole process again, so the next shoot is booked. I can't quite work out why these photos are so much more "as others see me" after all I take a self portrait every week and the process is the same - me in front of a camera - the only thing that is different is the finger on the shutter so to speak. Anyway I'm delighted that I took the plunge and had a go.
I've also been on a bit of a spending spree........ shoes, stockings, dresses.The poor wardrobe has long since overflowed but I don't have the space to put another so some reorganisation is needed.  I'm sure that Lottie, http://lottieloves.com/ would faint at the sight of my wardrobe - it's actually quite hard to see the wardrobe as there is so much hanging around the outside - and demand that I sort myself out!!  As for shoe storage....well the bulk of them are under my bed, in their boxes, neatly labeled. The snag is that there are several pairs.....ok a lot of pairs still to be found a home. Storage is such a problem....... I can hear mutterings that perhaps I should have a clear out.......shame on you!! It is a known fact that as soon as you throw something out you need it..............

A for Attitude

Hmmmm attitude I can do but not the sort Lottie is prompting us to strive for but I'll have a go.  My biggest "positive" is that I'm succeeding in my hobby/obsession, photography. I have almost conquered my camera controls, learned to use a laptop and editing software and launched my photographs onto some websites. This has been a tremendous boost to my confidence which has affected many other aspects of my life. I am working at the gym to get my body back! It disappeared and I'm going to get it back - the one that fits into size 12 (UK) clothes that is. In the meantime I'm much happier with the one I have and not afraid to show it off a little, ok well sometimes a bit more than a little! I've let my hair grow longer and coloured it and it's good. My legs are fine so they deserve to be pampered with some lovely seamed stockings and high heels are back on my menu too. Gardening is now done in gloves so that my hands and nails are looking good. Small things I know but they are all taking me in the right direction.

Thanks Lottie!

Decisions

How to make a decision - actually that'd be a better title, then I could write " I have no idea"  end of blog post! But there is no getting away from them, they fill our daily lives and if we are particularly unlucky they fill our nighttime too. I have been making quite a few lately, nothing earth shattering but of importance to me. To be able to say that is quite a step forward as in the not too distant past I was unable to decide upon the simplest of things. And isn't it often the simplest that floor us? I have stumbled over 'do I have marmite or marmalade on my toast' and laughable as that may be, at the time it resulted in me not eating the toast.
The photo shoot I had earlier in the week was a good example of my improved ability to make decisions without pondering...... I couldn't dither, the answer had to be almost instant, though they were made easier as they involved clothes, shoes, makeup etc. All areas in which I feel comfortable. I can imagine that some would think them terribly trivial but on this occasion they were important to the success of the shoot, they had to be right. After all if you put the wrong stockings with a dress..........  I made the right decisions and at the end of the shoot I felt more confident than I have for a long while - I had held the whip hand (and NO it wasn't that sort of photo shoot!) and the decisions I made had resulted in success.
I might even decide to post one or two of the photos.....ummmm let me think about that one ;)

Friday is Frock day!

I'm liking this idea more and more - one definite day to wear a dress - it's so easy to drag on a pair of jeans. Well no more will I do that on Friday. Today I wore one for my weekly Self Portrait. I think it looks just fine......

Shoes

Say hello to my new kittens!!