Small and Insignificant

The title says it all really.........about how I feel. After effects of the funeral - mind in turmoil .......  again. In an effort to redirect my thoughts I started to go through my photo library on the Air - as it's the laptop which travels with me the majority of the work  is of France or PBase meets. Happy times! I found one or two  lovely shots which I had missed way back when........ Mental note: must be more careful with my editing and posting in the future. Having said that I came across this - http://www.completedigitalphotography.com/?p=1212  (How can anyone do this?) The gallery of lost and found images is well worth a look too. So, now perhaps I will face the rest of Sunday in a better frame of mind.

These are 2 of my "lost and found"

Today 2

 I coped with the funeral I guess, no weeping and wailing. Family members where there who I didn't know and that made me sad. There must have been rifts in the family before I was born. Such a shame..... I felt as if I was on the outside looking in.......... makes a change............ sigh!

Today

Today I go to a funeral....second family one this year. Both ladies have been of "good age" one 104 the other in her 90's........ It makes you think. The changes in the world which they both saw and the differences in their lives, both quite remarkable in their own way. One lady I suspect never left Devon, though she might have had the odd foray "up country" - Somerset maybe! The other jetting round the world to visit far flung relatives! The dice is rolled and you never know what you'll get nor how you'll handle what you get..........

Smile

I smiled a lot today!

Paperwork - Heaps

During my "absent" months - that's the only way I can think of them as I have little recollection of what happened for a great portion of them, in certain quarters of my life anyway. Other parts are crystal clear. Strange that......... Anyway I digress..... during that time I did not touch any paperwork, bills, receipts, statements, accounts of any sort. It's a wonder we didn't go bankrupt!! Everything accumulated in heaps in the study and sometimes on the kitchen table, until it was moved......to the study. Yesterday I made a start. It was hardly worth keeping the old stuff on the bottom of the heap (that's the first heap) so a quick look through for anything crucial then on the new heap for the fire it went. This new heap is now 1' high - I really must light the fire soon............. Today I might tackle another heap, or file some of yesterdays "crucial stuff" or do some photography.............place your bets...............

Expectations 2

I was really pleased with this image. Being Friday it's my Self Portrait day and I wanted to try something different. Well different for me. It wasn't easy to do but my little Panny is light and easy to use and perfect for SP's. My new earring is a bit different too but then I have always liked unusual jewellery - quirky rings and earrings especially. The photo fell flat with the family but then nothing new there! If I don't have an inane grin on my face - holiday snap style then they're not happy. But then I take photographs for myself - one luxury I intend to keep hold of..........

Laugh

I've had a lovely day today, despite some technical difficulties. Watched a film with a friend, we laughed so much I nearly cried! Laughter is good for the soul, it makes you glow.........

Can you see Mr Punch?

Well I'm really pleased with my photo of an elastic band! (see yesterday)   I think I'll have a go at printing it.

 I had a really good day at the market, lots to see and a few characters to photograph. Dartmoor had a dusting of snow and there were some lovely cloud formations around. I never tire of photos of Dartmoor in all its moods but I must remember to vary my viewpoints. It's not a case of find the tripod marks, more the tyre tracks! All in all a good day.........

Expectations

Hmmm for a change I got the title first and am tempted to follow it up with "what expectations?"  But then that would be too negative wouldn't it?  I must admit to being a little on the cautious side when it comes to my own expectations.......it takes quite a while for the bruising to subside! But there I go again, being negative...... perhaps I'm not in the right frame of mind to write anything constructive or positive so you can look at this instead! When this photo was posted in my PaD Gallery there was a debate about what it actually is...........  ;))

Technology

It's a while since I wrote anything here....internet interruption, totally self inflicted......sigh!  I found that 2 days with no contact with my "virtual world" was quite unpleasant. How quickly we embrace technology and weave it into our lives!
Anyway now that the livebox has been moved and a long extension lead removed, I have a faster connection speed.....or is it my imagination?!

Pink

  How quickly we move to thinking of spring when we get a few milder days - so the sharp frost this morning was a bit of a surprise..... I really must take more notice of the Weather Forecasts!

A little bit of pink to brighten the day.

Bright?

There is an advert, the catchphrase is "The future's bright, the future's Orange" Well that's fine if you're in the market for a mobile phone. I'm not sure what colour my future is......if, in fact it even has a colour.......

Emotion

Sometimes I really want to scream... you know, a full blooded, loud howling scream which would tear my lungs and make people cover their ears.  But I don't because I have had a good upbringing. I was taught to always control my emotions. Taught that there was nothing to be gained by "excessive' shows of any sort of emotion. You just got on with life, put whatever it was behind you and got on with whatever came along next. Whatever!!
So now why do I want to rebel? I'm a bit old for that surely.......... Why do I want to scream a bloodcurdling scream?  Perhaps I have a good many years to make up for.  Perhaps I don't care any more what people might think.  Perhaps I want to make myself heard...... but will anyone listen?
 I wonder....

Eyes - continued

Having had a logical think about my eyes and having been told by the optician that the laser surgery has healed very well, I realise that the problem - as so often - is of my own causing. Little sleep, long hours at the laptop, neither particularly good for eyes. So I must try to improve the quality of my sleep and if that means taking pain relief when I don't really feel I need it then so be it!

I found this image in my library, along with several others 'eye" related - must have been on my mind.....

Eyes

So here I am ..... back from the Opticians with 2 sorts of drops to use in my eyes, specifically my left eye. One lot will leave me with blurry vision for about 30 minutes - they go in twice each day. The others are artificial tears and are to be used 4 times each day. All in all there isn't going to be much time when I have clear vision. Great for photography!!


I've looked back at a previous entry which, due to the wording, could imply that I don't normally take thought and care with my photographs. This isn't true, but perhaps it is my own perception of the processes of preparation etc that is askew!

Flora